Another casualty from the world of gay porn: I'm hearing Josh Weston died today of a heart attack, at the age of 39. My friend CC used to be chat buddies with the popular performer -- who was reportedly working on a memoir called "Sleeping My Way to the Bottom" -- and I will update with his thoughts later this evening.
UPDATE: My friend Christopher writes ...Josh Weston or "Chad," which was his real name, was a kind and very intelligent man. He graduated from college, had a very impressive vocabulary, and wrote very insightful blogs on MySpace. I was lucky to be pen pals with him during a very difficult time in my life. He always wrote back to me and seemed to care about the hell I was going through. We spoke on the phone a few times back in 2006 when he was living in New York City. At that time he was still escorting but had left major studio porn. We never met and our last conversation on the phone had him packing up to move out west to join his sister on a business venture. He seemed ready to move on from the "adult performer" role and move into a different stage of life since he was now in his 30's. I was surprised when I saw him appear in bare back films shortly after. In these films, he appeared ill and not really with it. I did sense loneliness and depression in some of our conversations. This is something that I believe many of us gay men deal with on different levels from time to time. I can't say I knew him well, but I can say that he was kind, very sincere, very bright, and very beautiful. I tried numerous times to reach him via email and phone since 2006. It appeared that he "disappeared." I'm very sorry to hear about his passing and hope that he now finds peace.